Anti-hero: Just another curve ball life threw at me

         You know how every girl grows up listening to fairy tales about prince charming and the shining knight? Well, I am not very different. But I was one who always adored Batman more than Prince Charming, I always liked the dark and mysterious more than the fair and loving. What did I know that it would prove to me my pattern for the rest of my life? Childhood dreams are said to affect how a person functions much after they grow up and forget almost all of it, that is how deeply embedded they are in one's psyche!

         Growing up on the steady diet of classics, chick flicks and the wishes of a completely clueless friend circle, I ended up thinking that prince charming is right around the corner and life is but  a happy tune which is to be whistled to one's heart content. Alas, the anti hero of my childhood is more real than Cinderella's happy endings. The anti hero has been there for all to observe, but he is so well as disguising himself that most of us do not even realise that we are living right next to him!
        For those who have no clue who an anti hero is.Think Batman, think Micheal Corleone from the Godfather, think Mr Darcy from Pride and Prejudice, think Chuck Bass from GG, think Sherlock Holmes and oh so many many more. They are not the bad guys, but they aren't the good ones either. They just are the way they are, no questions about it, no apologies, just them.  The most recent example would be that of Dexter. He is a murderer, he lives outside the law yet he kills bad guys! So is he good or bad? I really don't know, but for me he will always be the dark knight for Rita and Debra...A force unto his own, yet the protective one who will let no harm come to those he loves!That's the thing with anti heroes, they may seem like a dream, but living with them is another matter all together.
      Yes, this is me cribbing about me living with an anti hero. It is almost impossible, half the times you don't know what to expect. They will be sweet when you least expect them to be, and when you do need them, they are off doing god knows what! I am learning to just be and not ask. I am also learning to not hold on, but letting go seems so hard. Maybe I am doomed to be Kay or Blair but I hope to be Elizabeth! Can't fight the fairy tale in me even though I live with my anti hero each day...