Denial: that bad or is it?

                        Watching the tv, as I flipped through channels, I saw this piece that echoed something that my mother has been going on for years. The power of thought process and the effect it has on environment. I am not exactly a big believer of all that I hear and see, but I do believe in the essence of Karma. Thus, it got me thinking, if all of us are a part of some giant design, where all is interconnected, why is it that one is able to feel so much, while there are others who do not feel at all? Being a optimistic skeptic is an interesting life to lead, it allows me to feel hopeful, while also helping me face the harsh short comings of the world around when they abruptly cross my path. Many of my friends believe that I live in denial, where I close my eyes, and pretend that no one can see me.

                       But what I like to wonder about is the fact that most of the people do live in some form of denial or the other. In fact it is my personal belief that it is imperative for one to survive. Living in the country as young as India, I believe that the presence of denial can be felt in each section of ones life; I see people deny that their relationships are job-like than connections, so that they don't have to be alone, I see people live in denial about their aspirations becoz someone else has already dreamt for them (be a parent, a partner, a mentor!), I see my friend (who is closer than anyone else) deny herself her natural sexual inclination for the happiness of others, and struggle to convince herself that it is just a phase. All of this and more makes me wonder, is denial a bad thing or is it a necessity to survive in society?

                     I like to believe that I know where I apply it, and am unconsciously ensuring that I am prepared. but in the light of the recent events of my life, I have to admit denial, is a shield that protects in the most comfortable manner. It helps one remain warm on a cold night, it helps one keep moving when something important is lost, it helps us cope when we cant face the truth. In my case, I was denial about the fact that I will not change, but it was with the coming of something beautiful, that I realized how much I wanted to, and how much of denial I was in. 

                  Today, I am past it (or at least I like to think that I am past it), and living without it, but it is my belief that denial is a source of strength or power for one who is lost. I know I know, a number of people will disagree, but this is me voicing my thoughts, one is welcome to clear thoughts, but for me Denial will always be a source of happiness, a place to just be me, far from all the hassle.
For me denial will always be a haven!!